Personal Best

Last Thursday was my last day at Carol Frazey’s Fit School for Women. I walked onto the track that morning knowing that we were going to be timed as we pushed ourselves four times around the track – 1 mile.  The first day of class six weeks ago we did the same thing  – so there was a time to beat.

I told myself it didn’t matter, that going faster is not my goal, that I’m not in this to win anything or to prove anything to anyone.  I’m simply doing this class to get fit and be healthy.

What amazes me about runners is that they do it.  When I was a girl with two legs, running was always hard for me. Within a block I had a splitting side ache and my lungs felt like they were on fire. Even if I still had my leg, I doubt that running would be my thing.  There was one woman in the group who clearly loves to run.  Each time she passed me I heard her breath, heavy and steady.  Little puffs of morning air escaped, like she was a small dragon-lady.  Her gait was fresh and light; her ponytail bouncing behind her like it was swishing flies from her back.  It’s not that she was fast; it was that she was determined.  She probably was my opposite, wanting the beat her time from the first day of class, wanting to see improvement.

She kind of rubbed off on me.  All the women walking and running that morning did.  After my first lap, I realized that it I did want to I improve my time.  I acknowledged that how fast I walk is directly related to increased fitness.  By increasing my pace I increase the benefits of the workout.  So I kept walking, despite the muscle cramps in my residual limb.

On my third lap I remembered how hard it was six weeks ago to join this group of able-bodied women who seemed so comfortable in their bodies, who could run if and when they wanted to.  I remembered stifling back the tears, feeling like the odd girl out again, just like after I lost my leg.

But this wasn’t about them, this was about me.  This was about doing my personal best.  And that one runner who ran laps around me inspired me to do my personal best just by doing hers.  I decided that this does matter.  I did want to improve my pace.  I did want to prove to myself – not to anyone else – that I can get better at walking.  Even if my fastest walking pace is still slower than everyone else on that track, it was better than when I started.

I am proud to say that I rocked!  I finished my mile  2 1/2 minutes faster than 6 weeks prior.  I came in at 18 minutes, 41 seconds.

Maybe I’ll sign up for Carol’s next session.  Who knows what my personal best can be.

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2 Responses to Personal Best

  1. Carol Frazey says:

    Congratulations, Colleen. You rocked! Thanks for all of your inspiration.

  2. Denis Haggerty says:

    You are an amazing woman and you make me proud! Love you. Uncle Denny

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