I can only be super busy for so long and then I need a break. That’s what the past month has been about for me. Since January I had been walking everyday, fitting in my 1/2 hour walk even when all I had between work and a night time commitment was 45 minutes. And I blogged, daily at first for two months and then twice a week.
It’s been a busy first half of the year and the most fulfilling 6 months I’ve had in a long time. I reminded myself how much I can accomplish when I really set my mind to it. Making the daily choice to DO rather than BE was a dramatic shift for me and a state of mind I hadn’t adopted for years. I enjoyed checking so much off the personal To Do list. I was a woman of accomplishment.
And now I just want to rest. I want to get up everyday and write my book. I want to go to coffee shops and sip on lattes. I want to have languid, expanded days of nothingness before me where spontaneity rules. I want to feel like I did as a child when days felt interminably long. I actually had a day like that yesterday and I felt like a new woman. After do-do-doing, I got back to center. I followed my heart in the moment. I read Autobiography of a Face and then googled the author and read more about her. I actually shopped for and made dinner. I saw my niece for coffee and chatted with an old friend on the phone. My daughter and I figured out how to knit (again). I even cleaned out my email inbox. It wasn’t a day of grand accomplishments, but I did accomplish taking it easy.
During the past month as I’ve allowed myself to slow my pace, I can’t help but think about my next goal. I’m talking with the Executive Director at the Prosthetics Outreach Foundation about how we can continue working together to raise money. How can I still support this organization? How can my support continue to be equally beneficial to me? How can I continue to take care of my body as it ages? All these questions loom and percolate as I think about my next move.
For those who haven’t heard, part of my next move is to do a reading at Village Books on Wednesday, September 8 at 7 pm. I’ll be reading my essay, No Apologies Necessary, that is included in the anthology The Spirit of a Woman, Stories to Empower and Inspire, edited by Terry Laszlo-Gopadze. I am honored to be sharing the podium with Christina Baldwin, a local writer of journaling, story telling and leadership, who also has an essay in the anthology. I invite you to join me.
Until then, I’ll keep percolating on my next goal. And relaxing as much as I can.